While Writing

Way Down We Go: Kaleo 

I have a hard time writing without music. I get stuck and I stare at the empty page. My fingers dancing on the keys, writing and deleting the words that don't quite form the right sentence. My pen tap, tap, tapping to leave blots of ink marring the page. It's only with the lilting, swirling notes open to my interpretation that I can finally write. 

This song, in particular, accompanied me through numerous chapters of Henny and Doherty's story. Even listening to it now, weeks after I've completed the manuscript, this song brings me right back to one particular moment for Henny. It was one second in his life that changed everything. And it makes me want to dive right back in to write more. Those possible scenes would go along with the others hidden in my Henny folder, saved for a time I might revisit and catch up with where Henny and Doherty ended up. Maybe I'll just write those for me because their story taught me so much about who I am. 

While Henny was learning who he was, I was learning who I was. I decided, like Henny, you have to go for what you want. If people don't understand or support you, then they don't know what they're missing. And sometimes, all that fear and anxiety you had about telling people what you were working on, or who you were dating, or what you wanted to do with your life? None of it actually mattered to them. They were proud, excited and happy for you. They always will be because you went after your dreams. How many people have the guts to do that?

That's what I love about writing. Even when you're writing about someone completely different, in a world that only exists for those pages, you learn who you are and the potential of who you may become.