I've been quiet on here the past few months. I would blame it on being busy, learning everything at a new job and then interviewing for other jobs but that's not truly what has left me struggling. Those are just excuses and it's come to the point where I have to get it out. I have to stop hiding who I am.
So here it goes.
My name is Ashley. I'm twenty-seven years old. I love a person not based on their gender but who they are to me. I'm demisexual and I find myself more attracted to women when I do experience those feelings.
Most of my family are amazing. They couldn't care who I was with as long as I was happy and they don't treat me any differently. But there are the few that don't act the same. It hurts when I hear people I love talking so horribly about LGBTQ+ people. It makes me want to hide that part of me even more than I already do. It was hard enough for me to publish under my given name but I did it because it's part of me. It was so freeing to be able to do that. I rode that high for a good while. I said I didn't care what people thought of me but when it comes to family, I do.
Because of this struggle, accepting that maybe there are parts of my life I won't be able to share with certain family members, I've let it influence my writing.
Then there is the the new job I started in January, the fact that I'm looking for a different job because this one isn't cutting it. I am apparently am not made to sit at a desk to do the same thing over and over every day. I went on an interview and it looks promising. I hope it turns out well. If not, I suppose I'll keep trying at different places. One day I'll be able to live off my writing until then I've got to suck it up and work lol.
So what am I going to do to change this. I have a couple of books with different methods to writing that I'm going to see if they can help jump start my story-line and help me plot things out. I'm facing this head on and doing what I can to write this next book. I'm also talking to my friends more about things going on (holy crap I have those and have come to love them dearly) and not letting things build up.
That's what's been happening in the world of Ashley. Maybe I'll have a brighter update for you in the upcoming weeks!
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